Feel Like Shit... But still happy !

Still sitting at home with my sore back. Very fucking depressed. Lot of friends but only couple of GOOD friends. Feel like shit Deja Vu ! I have drunk couple of beers today so don't care about my really bad English today. I'm depressed because I noticed that It's very hard for me to love someone, and I'm not talking about my parents, sister or brother who I love forever. But my relationships with women. I've been now about year and a half single guy and of course I've had some eh... close relationships with women but only few of them made me be happy. . made me feel like there is no problems in this world at all. I talked two of them today. Maybe I'm not straight enough to give my thoughts to them or maybe I don't want it enough. I don't know. But what is most important thing in my life right now... It's not my relationships with women or my sex life... It's my sister who is pregnant ! Only about month to go and I'm going to be uncle, I'm so excited ! I hope everything goes well. I love my sister, that's the thing I know for sure !

np: Noumena - The End of the Century

Music

Little bit better day, got some sleep this morning. Now sitting home just listening music. I found new band couple of days a go. Divine Decay. Finnish metal band. I have always liked old school Finnish metal band called Stone and Divine Decay sound little bit like it. Great music, I recommend it if you like metal music. I like metal, I have liked it since about early 80's. It started when I first heard some Kiss songs. When I got Metallica's Master of Puppets album, my mind exploded... Of course I listen other music too. Mostly Finnish pop bands. Lately I have listened Frank Zappa's songs because of my brother in law :) He's playing drums in band called Pygmy Gorillas, awesome playing and those Zappa songs are not easiest songs to play... Listen for example Zomby Woof song played by Pygmy Gorillas from this location.

I hate Easter

Life sucks ! It's midnight, bar I planned to go is full of people, especially nice looking girls with tight asses and I'm sitting at home drinking couple of beers... Why ? Because I hurt my back yesterday and today it has been so fucking sore that all I can do is to sit on my sofa with my laptop. God Damned It ! Can't even walk properly, even walking to toilet about 3 meters is unbelievable pain for me. I'm not alone thought, I promised to my best friend to take care of his dog called Deevil (Yes, It's spelled right, Not Devil). Nice dog (sleeping now). My friend went, surprise, to bar with his girlfriend. Fortunately there were some great friends who were also at home this evening so I had chance to make some very great conversations with them during this evening via messenger. We had lot of fun.

I think I'm not going to sleep at all tonight because of pain but that's not worst thing about my night....Holy shit, I'm not going to get laid tonight.... ;)

np: Divine Decay - Song of the Damned

It's Easter

It's Easter coming and I have nothing planned for that. Today there will be Heavy Karaoke in my favorite bar called Rocktown and in other place called Sirkus there will be Finnish metal band called Kotiteollisuus. I think that if I'll go somewhere, I'll go to karaoke to do some performing with moshing of course ;) By the way, from Rocktown pages you can find some pictures of me and my friends singing couple of weeks ago.

np: Impaled Nazarene - Vitutuksen multihuipennus

First post...

Ok, now I have my own space somewhere... I try to make some writing here in future if something happens in my life. Sorry about my bad english but I'll try :)